Peace

Our love coasts everything.
Whilst we are just a mere human who have nothing.
We ain't Jesus or Muhammad who sacrifice all their life for the human being salvation.

We cling on to many things in this world.
And our love coasts the despair of them.
Love is indeed a powerful yet the infinite entity in this life.

But our love is just a dust without any sacrifice.
And to pay it, the coast is everything.

We do in love.
But do we have everything to redeem it?

Darling, our love coasts everything.

and we are nothing.

October, 23rd 2015

xo,

T

I saw the real life, yesterday.

I guess.

So my friend and i just got a new experience that we thought it would change our point of view about what life is. Well, maybe the thing that i experienced yesterday is something natural that happen to all of humans. But then again, it's new for me. And it changed everything that i see through my eyes.
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Our.Art Production is a little company that my friend arranged about a year ago or so. She asked me and some of my friends to join in, and so we did. What we do through this little company is a kind of branding marketing and consultant. The job contains maintaining the brand of a company itself through media socials and some kind of events. We also could make a profile company and such, in terms of  the company's necessity.

Okay. i might sound like a marketing now...

But the thing is, we're just a starter. And we are still have a very minimum experiences. And we sometimes just don't know what to do and have zero ideas while our job is actually make some fresh ideas. It stressed out us sometimes but we always end up with a big laughs and some nasty jokes.

-That's what happened if you work with your best friends-

And so, two days ago we met our very first serious client. They wanted us to make a profile company both in hard copy and a video. After we gave a presentation to someone like -i don't know if he is the secretary of the owner or so, he looked impressed and sure with us and he said that they will call us after he discuss it with the owner. Short long story, at first the secretary didn't say that the owner will be join. But about 15 minutes after we had that discussion, the owner came and he asked me and my friend to do the presentation again.

And somehow we were got numb all of sudden. The words were stop right in the edge of our tongues and we just lost our marketing sense. We don't have any portfolio yet for the profile company, cause this one is our very first time so we just show them the template and the concept that we could make.
Then the owner just hit us with,
"So what things that you have made already? Your portfolio maybe? The videos or anything. Can we see?"
we said, "This is our first time, sir. We don't have any portfolio yet."
"Okay." Said the owner with that kind of -gosh they're still kid. am i really spend my money and my trust for them- face.

For God sake it was really tense. I was shivering and so was my friend. After that hit, he hit us again with
"What is your background?"
"Sociology, sir."
"Oh really? Sociology? You could be more attractive than this. So you could convince me about your company and your concepts."
"-dying-"

But after he found out that we have a Sociology background, our talk moved out to CSR and other social things that still relate to the company. And the tense were slowly faded and yeah that's it.

The thing that i just want to say is. That real world is so much different from things that you've learned in a class or what you've experienced through some committees that you were join. The pressures are 90% heavier and the responsibilities are have no hole. Perfect is your duty and you can't simplify even a very single little thing.
All you need is a maturity now.
Isn't a joke anymore that you face.

Oh yes, i'm talking to myself.

brace it,

T 

365th

I must say and to be honest, i spent these several past days with the shades of tears. I don't know how these bad things could be happened in a row.
My favorite laptop with my whole files, thesis, pictures, videos, all things precious is gone in couple of days ago. I know it was my fault and i shouldn't left it in my car that day. My parents so mad at me and i don't have any idea how can i do my thesis after this. Or my projects, or if i need my old files. i am terribly sad, upset, and regret that i left it inside my car. Someone stole it and broke the left door of my car. I didn't realize that it was gone until i get to my friend's flat and when i wanted to take it, it wasn't there. I got panicked, my friend was instantly take me back to campus right in the parking lot where i was parked my car, i asked the security, my friend asked some people who were there, but then i got nothing. No clues cause no one gave attention to my car, and my laptop was really gone and lost. I just hope that maybe somehow i could find it back. It's not about the laptop but all the files. They are really important.

next,

I am no more with you.
I couldn't explain anything with this. We both know that us is something impossible. Ever since we shake hands. But i somehow, i don't know if you meant to do that or it's just me who misread, that you were convinced me that somehow or somewhat and someway we could be together someday. And that's why i keep myself stay with us. I keep fight for us. Cause i do really believe that us is possible. It's just matter of time.
The thing is i realized it now that actually, it's just  me who believe it. I didn't mean that you're not loving me but the thing is i know that our purpose on this thing between us is different now. And that's make me sick. truthfully. and i know so do you.
So i decide to go and won't get back into this. Cause i know if i stay, vanishes, lies, naives are the things inside our relationship beneath those cheers, kisses, and laughs. and i know it will hurt so deep for both of us. and i had enough to experience that. I truly had enough. And i truthfully know that so do you.

So by the end of 2015. I guess i know why these bad and teary things had happen to me. I guess God has prepared something better for me and by these things He wants me to take the lessons. Really take it and learn it so i won't face these anymore.

And you.
I tell you, that this will be my last tears for you. So please don't come back.
I love you have a great life.

xo,
T

Instead of fall, I am drowned

No.
It is not the expression of regret nor rage.
Just a mere of enigma that cling to a mere girl.
She ain't despair but fluster.
Wondering where her soul has been gone.
She is empty.
and frightened.

Her longing to the world is the worst.
While from the unreachable sky, He is waiting.
Offering an everlasting solace.
She should be answer His invitation.
But why still stay, Cherie?
Waiting for the soul that lost?

Oh Cherie.
She already flew up high towards Him.
Resting her fatigue cause she played too hard.
Why wondering where she is?

Go home Cherie.
She is already there.
and He is waiting.

xx

That Green Dim Light

Yesterday in the middle of stressing phase in my first chapter of my thesis, I decided to watch a movie. And I came up with The Great Gatsby of a sudden because I remembered that I haven’t watched it yet. And my first impression is

WHAT THE HELL-GREAT COMBINATION OF TOBEY MAGUIRE AND LEONARDO DICAPRIO IN ONE SCREENPLAY!

They are such a darling and too hot to be together in a one screen. Not to mention their acting. they’re the best for sure. The set is also my favorite. I adore so much the post world war I lifestyle in U.S. They were classy and so passionate but surely negative to the liquors and the racists things. But still who doesn’t love to see their glamorous life with those dazzling dresses, fancy parties with those swingy-jazzy tunes, and the funny-tipsy dance, those all a great yet terrifying combination. Why is that so? Just wonder if you get high every night and you just end up with some guy. Well, a guy it’s fine but what if you end up with someone who’s married. Oh gosh okay this shouldn’t be typed.

And now, about the story line. Woohoo.

Frankly, I don’t know how but, I do feel what Gatsby experienced.  To reach something unreachable or to have something that limited, and when you surprisingly got the chance to reach it or have it in just one step it suddenly puffed up and gone. The big question is why on earth we have to experience such a pitiful things like that. I mean what’s the point of us just to be there, right before the finish line to grasp the thing we crave for but it comes up with nothing? Is it just for us to watch the thing vanish clearer? If you thought so then you can blame fate.

But I’m not saying that I agree with the thought and by that I’m neither disagree with it.  Cause for me that’s all pointless. I mean, we sometimes argue whether things are wrong or right or it shouldn’t be like the way it is while truthfully world doesn’t offer such thing as an absolute righteousness. That divine thing is define by the groups of perfections and finals. Unfortunately the world has zero of them. Cause none is final. We are not final. Just a mere of a sentence without punctuation. Ambiguous, blur, and not final.

So why bother? It’s true that our life tends to reach the final and perfection. But that’s not the only thing and the main purpose of this life. If you ask me what it is, I will say life is mattered by an act of acceptance. Why is that so? back again then, cause all things are not final so what we only can do is to accept all the things.

And Gatsby. Well, I don’t see that he nearly understand about the idea of acceptance. It’s true that Daisy loved him since and for forever. But for having her it’s sadly just an illusion. Just like that green light right on the opposite of his dock. All he could do just seeing it from afar and no matter how much he stretch his hand to it, it still far away and unreachable.

World is indeed a big stage of comedies. All that insane thing could happen. So just laugh to it in terms of acceptance. What happened to Gatsby happened to me as well. And perhaps so do you. To accept such a pitiful thing is f**king hard and suffering. And I do feel Gatsby that we’re indeed tipsy by love so the idea to accept that pitiful thing is such a pathetic deed. So no wonder if he prefer to wait for a call from her till he’s dead. Cause he never shakes his hand with the acceptance. And so there he was. Drawn with his own idea of struggling a flawless love.

And how about me? Will I end up just like Gatsby or will I accept it?

Well..

I guess, I prefer to sit here with a glass of ice tea, swingy-jazzy tunes, and a show of my own fate then laugh and enjoy at it.

Cause why should I rush to choose which the right deeds to do? I am not final yet tho. So does the world. I’m accepting all of them by giggles. This world is just a mere stage of comedies, right?

Why bother? Enjoy! We’re not final yet.

Xx,

T

Ephemeral Sunshine Instead

Hey!

These past 3 months went hard, annoying, exhausting, and confusing. I couldn't get my own longing, my own thoughts, my own feeling, even my own deeds. Things were going too fast i guess so my brain couldn't catch it as fast as it comes.
The bomb has already blown up right at the 10th seconds not at 0 as it used to be. I ain't prepared that much so yeah i kinda messed up.
Keep blaming all this universe why this has to be happened again on me and why i have to drink the same tears like i've done it before.
And still believing that things would be fine like it used to when the fact everything has been wrecked into pieces.
So then i found myself laughing to me.
For being that stupid and being such a pathetic girl, a whore, and a loser.
Hahaha!

and it hits me that i think Summer was right
"Love is just a fantasy"

It's enough for me to see that all these people are just the same.
So i am stop doing this thing. i am exhausted
i really need a rest, God.
These wounds are really more than enough.
Seriously.
I'm done and it was really great! Yes I mean it! so please stop.

Funny isn't it to see and experiencing  your favorite movie is rolling in your own life?
Hey Tom i know that feel!

xo,
T

23:35 of the Soprano

Yellow there!
In the middle of the most boring holidays with the tension caused by the results for this semester but am glad that the 5th semester has already passed. It was pretty hard tho, i had this one subject and it values 4 sks, so the lecture was going like forever and its tasks was like they wont stop coming. But i actually pretty enjoyed the lecture cause the Professor was really good on explaining things, though he forced us to bought like almost a dozen of books and we had to bring them all in class, but then i glad that i still enjoyed it. The lecture not those tasks. And surprisingly, i just ended up with B which is pretty ... annoying ... but i guess i deserve it since i abandoned some tasks. he he. And for the rests of the subjects i'm still waiting for the scores *finger cross*. So i guess, that's the 5th  semester. Wasn't that good and wasn't that bad. C'est comme ci comme ça.

Anyways, the reason why i'm typing this post it's because i realize that i have the MUSIC label on my right tab bar and as i remembered i haven't made any post which described what is music to me and what kind of music i am. So here it is boom .. booom... boomm...
First of all, let me declare this to you that, Music is everything to my life *blaah cliché*. But it is. It really is cause it's impossible that me without music. And music impacted my days, my personalities and my point of view a lot, like the way i think of something could be different between before i had listening to one of the really good damn song, lyrically and/or musically, and after i have listening to it. It's sort of like that.
yeah it is.
well this kind of declaration and description is lame right?
shit.

Move on!
So, i like almost every kind of music. But mostly i enjoyed soul, jazz, RnB, pop, and other kind of normal music. I love the instrumental too! -don't underestimate me. My taste is not that shallow *glasses on*- All my love goes to Miles Davis and John Coltrane. I also enjoyed myself to Classical. Well, this one is pretty new for me, but not that new actually. I've met them when i took a basic piano lessons and when i was one of the member of the Classical children choir when i was like 13 or something. But i was not have that huge interest with the genre. I was sung and played it just as a lessons and nothing more. But things have changed ever since I've joined the Choir in my campus. I started to like it and have an interest to the genre and wanna being a real and pro chorister *amen*. I'm still a moron tho with this genre and still confuse in dividing whether it is a Baroque, Renaissance, Early or other kind of classics. But i'm willing to learn about them all. I also take i private course to improve my singing skill especially in classic. And it surprises me that my vocal cords are more comfort singing this kind of musics than others. While, honestly, i am more enjoy singing or playing with some groovy or jazzy or soul or other kind of those genres. But it turns out that i love Music more with its varieties. It makes me 'rich'.

Talking about classics i have these songs which are my favorite so far.



Well that's all i guess hehe. So far. I've been sing almost of the songs, but not (yet) with the Seal Lullaby by Eric Whitacre and the Ronde sung by Chanticleer but it will be performing soon! So exciting and stressed me out. It's quite hard. And i'm still waiting for a chance to sing the Whitacre's. I looveee his chords that he used. So beautiful!

I guess that's it about the classic that i know and i like so far. This kind of post really excites me so i guess more to come with other genres *yippie*.

To be a chorister for me is an honored actually cause this is just kind of my place. I do really love to sing and singing  in Choir has a different energy and it feels amazing. I don't know how to describe. But the most big motivation why i decided to dedicate myself into music especially in this chorister thing, is my coach's quote. He said "For all these times, music is always there for you. When you're sad music's there for cheering you up and when you're happy music's also there for you. So now, this is your turn to do something for music. Make it alive and everlasting"

xx,

T

Yuletide

So,
Yesterday i was going to church with my family to celebrate the Christmas' eve as usual. Christmas' eve always be my favorite day over the New year's eve even may be my birthday. It's so happy to see all the family gathered together. Some already have couples of grandchild, some has just got married and gathered with a new big family, some are gonna have new babies, some Long-distance-relationship couples are finally could meet each others and share the joyful of Christmas while some have to feel some lost or solitude. But i bet all of those people are happy because The Savior has come to Earth.
This warmth, this joy, this grateful feel are the best thing that i could felt tonight. but maybe not as good as lasts Christmases because this is the first Christmas without my grandma and grandpa. God loves them more than us here. Grandpa was gone on 2012 and Grandma was gone last September. They are the greatest person in this universe and my days feel empty without them. But that's life. Nothing lasts forever.
And it realizing me something. A thing that actually i already understood, but kept denying it. May be i am a person who think rationally but do irrationally or in other words, a coward. I dont know how to explain this but when i see the ambiance of Christmas and its beauty i realize a thing that love isn't that love. it's a big thing and it is bigger than that, so it has the consequences and they also big.
So i guess that's it. May be because love has its potion to make us blind and drunk by it we always forgotten the rest. And make a barrier between love and other things while all the things in this life always relating.
I hope we all can be a better person and be brave.

Merry Christmas,

T

Reminiscing

It's like a reunion. It's a crystal clear that the ending would be the same and the journey of it, is obviously the same. The bomb is counting down. And my warmest Hello directly for the shit I've met two years ago.

I never expect to meet and experiencing you again. But seems life is too kind to not give me this great lemon.

Well yeah, Hello again! you shit!

Let's make another wound

xx,

T

Corners are the nest of epiphany

As she spent her hours there, a lot of thoughts are running in and out through her head. some thoughts are sweet as her free doughnut, others are bitter as her americano, the rests are blur as the smokes of cigarettes.

People were passing by, chattering, laughing, smoking but she busy with her solitude. She was ignoring the surrounding and drowned herself into those words that printed out on the yellowed pages.

tired of reading, she puts her earphones on. hit the 'Shuffle' button, then 24 - 25 by Kings of Convenience was tuning in. Forgot that she had the song in her phone, she played it hundreds times like she was being spelled by Erlend and Eirik's voices. Then she searched the lyrics, curious why she couldn't hit the 'Stop' or 'Next' buttons. She read those lyrics which appeared on her cell-screen over and over again, but she still don't get it.

But then, she stuck with the last sentence. it says,

"Dreams burn, but in ashes are gold"

she instantly got it. she thought,

Things will be gone. sooner or later cause there's no such a thing lasts forever. at the time the thing is about to going away, it'll sucked you down and messed you up. But soon, in the other time, the thing that has been gone, will turn to be something sweets and precious to us. it is the memory.

to release something nice it's hard. but things have its period and we can't make them stay any longer if the time has come.

Just release what should be released. it is hard, but soon it will be relieved.

cause there's a time and place for everything

 xo,

T

The longest ride ever

 

So there i was right behind my steer after had a long and tough conversation with my mom. I never thought it would be so long and tough to be heard. i know she wants the best for me and i know she loves me a lot so i guess, that is why she spread those phrases toward me. i kept silent and just nodded as she spoke cause i didn't have any idea what to say and  my tongue suddenly got numb. after she finished it, i barely couldn't say a word until now, so i guess i need this page to throw up all my thoughts. sometimes all what you need is just to write them down rather than spill it out through your mouth cause usually your tongue just got slipped and you'll screw everything. but i'm not sure if this page is the right place.

I drove myself home from the place where me and my mom met up and had that conversation. i was from my campus and she was from her office so we drove different cars. in the middle of the not-so-crowded traffic, i steered my car slowly with my eyes full of tears. yes i was cried. the hard one. and that was a rare event. i was cried because i knew how much my mother loveesss me and how much she worries about me. i am blessed for being her daughter cause she is really a super woman. but then i also cried about a thing. my mom called it a flame. a flame that i shouldn't play with. but I play with it cause i  fall for it.

I fall for that flame because it warms me up, comfy me,and cheers me up. i never thought before it would be this warm and deep. but as my mom said, this is not a flame that i shouldn't play with. it doesn't mean that the flame is a danger or someone beast but instead he is a good one. a really good one. but what my mother tried to say is; we are not belong to each other. we're not suppose to be together cause somehow we've got our own way. 

Sorrow is when you already realize that something isn't belong to you, but you still have that feeling and you just can't deny it. it's like a dream. it's really fun wasting time to be with him. sharing laughs, do silly things, playing basketball, watching movies, eat tons of foods, holding hands, sing out loud together, and so on. that's all so much fun and you just enjoy every little thing. but then, you consider that it's all just a nice dream. yes, it is a nice dream and soon you'll wake up and it's all will end. if this is really a nice dream, i won't wake up. but... i have to.

and if this is the time for me -or us- to wake up, i just want to say but sadly, i can't stringing up the words to express how fun it was to be with you, did all those things, it was just so much fun. thanks a lot. thanks for putting my smile back. I'll bring that smile after i wake up :) 

guess it's time for you to find your own happiness. and i'll find my own either.

i definitely will miss you. miss us.

et oui, Je t'aime beaucoup.

I really won't but have to,

T

The last and the first words

another year has been passed. everything's changed, grew, and moved out. got so many lessons to be learned, the goods and the bad. 

something that i've never imagined before had to happen all of a sudden. it's really dragging me down. but thank God, You showed me what is the truth. it's bitter but relieve. but still, i feel that pain. it scratch clearly in my heart. am not regret. but it doesn't mean i'm okay with that mess. i just feel sorry, to you. 

but above all, thank you very much.

2013 was so amazing. God is really good. He gave me several chances to joined some great events. so many things i have learned and experienced and they are so precious. thanks for those people, i've got new families and they are really awesome! glad to meet all of them!

what a bittersweet-roller coaster-insane-galau-superb-unforgettable year.
though few things were let me down, i had tons of cheeriness that boost myself to move forward.
I was and am happy.
and i surely will be happier.

yes,

be Happier 

xx

In a row

Hello people!! i miss y'all and this blog so much. and let me guess, i've been abandoned the challenges that i've started couple months ago. and for redeem it, this post might be the longest one cause i wanna do the challenge #6 through #10. so here we go!

Day #6

 What do you have for lunch? Post a pic and describe it

I made that by myself this noon, and it tasted not too bad, so i scored 7/10. i really have to improve my cooking skill and browse more some recipes. while fried rice is the only thing i'm able to cook.

Day #7

What was your favorite day of this week?

Last Tuesday, June 18. My bestfriend Alfie, has turned 19. some friends of mine and i were off to her house and made some lil surprise. so much fun and laughs. am always feel infinite around them.

Day #8

Your real & unrealistic dream

I have tons of desires and it's kinda hard to pick one thing that i interest the most. and i am the person who easily change my goals so i guess that's why i kinda hard to reach em.

So, my real dreams are to be a Public Relation and a Singer. 

Since a year ago or so, i was in the lobby of one great hotel in a town, and there was i look a 20 some y.o. woman and she looks really independence, smart, attractive, pretty and i just amazed by her. then my mother said that she was the public relation of its hotel. i don't know if mom was right but she was pretty sure. and that's why i really wanna be a PR and after all i guess that job is kinda suit to my interest. 

I really am love to singing. since i was kid, i can't do anything without singing. it's just like a breath and really enjoy it while doing it. i was joined some competitions too and i have lot of trophies. at church, i join the choir and so does in college. and sometimes when there's some event on campus, my friends and i perform a band. it's really enjoyable and i wanna be pro some day.

My unrealistic dream is to be a writer. why unrealistic? cause i think i'm not really good on it and after all i don't have any idea what to write. yet. 

But, the real unrealistic dreams of mine are take classes in Hogwarts, going to the moon, flying, time traveling.

Day #9

What kind of people attracts you the most

The simple ans is, a man who can give what woman's worth. if you can give that then you own her heart. 

as long as you give her worth.

Day #10

Today was hilarious because_____________

Nothing actually. trap in this house with those subjects. i have final term next week and i'm worried bout my scores. this semester was tough and stressful. i had this one subject and it took plenty of times and energy to finish its tasks. may the lecturers give the score worthy.

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It's a wrap! 5 more days tee-hee!!

xo,

T

Day #2 : Things you want to say to 5 different people

Good morning people welcome to May! As the rules, i wanna tell these to 5 people out there :

1. Are you happy now? You turn me down. Get Lost, btw!
2. Think before you Tweet, cherries
3. Well, i fancy your life
4. You're right sis, if it's hurting yourself then you should leave it
5. Keep our friendship like this. You're guys are my mood booster!

Call me lame and moody. i'm not in the good mood right now. Have a great day y'all

xo,

T

Lesson Learned

Life is amazing, because it hits you and hugs you within seconds. And a minute, you learn something big, something new, something eye-opening. That life, moves quickly and forward.

-Diana Rikasari

That quote just remembering me about my struggle how i got accepted to my favorite college. It was started at the firsts months of 2012, i was surprised got a chance to accepted to one college by my scores report from first till third grade which that mean i didn't have do writing test to be accepted, but instead just by my scores report. i was so happy and confidence that i would got and passed the selection. i was chose two universities that i like and two majors, which are International relations and Communication science. then it was about two months passed i guess, and somehow the announcement was suddenly announced at the same day as graduation of high school. I was graduated and i was so happy cause all my friends graduated too no one's failed. that was afternoon, i was just got back from the funeral with my mom and i got a message from a friend of mine, she told me that the college-selection announcement was able to be opened. after i got home, i turned on my laptop, plugged-in the internet services, went to a portal web, signed in my ID, waited the buffering, and... i failed. the sentences that i read that time told me that i was failed, i didn't pass the selection, those sentences really let me down. i cried, i felt that was the end of me cause i was so scared to do the writing test cause all that i heard about it, was so awful. the questions are hard enough to be answered and i was just too scared cause i just thought i can't. but then mom, dad, granny, boyfriend were gave me some strengths to try again and i tried the writing test. i prepared myself for almost two months and i know it wasn't enough. i changed all my plans i changed my majors and universities, i did set the majors that have a bigger chance. i threw up my dreams to take international relations and communication science and that was why i wasn't really excited to did writing test. but i always think about my parents i have to make them proud of me and so i did it. i bought the ID number with my dad, signed up, and at the end i chose sociology as my major. i didn't have any idea about it, all that i know i just like that lesson but i didn't have any passion on it. but i was just think, that was the best step. I did the test as best i could but then again i failed. i wasn't cried that time when i read the announcement, but i felt that something big, bigger than before hit my self and i was just like falling apart to pieces. i kept silent that night till i got bed, my tears couldn't hold up anymore. i wasn't thinking about my future but instead my parents. they were totally sad, i knew. i saw their faces and i won't paint those faces anymore.

The next morning, my mom asked me to kept try. there were still many ways and other selections universities, and we decided to follow one selection test that was held by one university. i still chose sociology as my major cause i still believe it has a big chance but that time i started to think positive and growing up my passion on it. i was started to study again with my new ambition and hope. study and pray that were what i did in a week. it was sunday and it was the day of test. i went to that university with my mom and prayed right before i went into the class and do the test. three days passed and the day of announcement was there. since i woke in the morning that day i can't relax i was just like a mad person. and finally, the website could be opened. i was totally nervous when i typed my ID number and when i clicked "checked" i said in my heart "God i'll be fine and happy with anythings happen after this. i know all the things happen in my life are the best". in about 30 seconds some words appeared in my monitor, i read it with my mom, and we both were screaming plus crying. yes, i did it! i finally passed those tests! God saved me! i've got accepted to my dream-university, with my new favorite major. it was the most great time since i was born.

what that i've learned is, life is totally amazing. without struggle there's no satisfaction,  without fall down no one would get up again and run faster cause time is always running and moving forward. we cant stop on one point if we failed, world has many chances, that's what my friend said. so there's no reason for us to feel desperate. cause what everything hits or hugs you there's always something big to learned, something new, something eye-opening that make us stronger and try harder than before.

xo,

tassya

23 : 46

It's almost end of the year and i'm blissfully bout things that i have today.

I've waited December like a zombie. it's always been my favorite month cause, ya know, Christmas is in the air and rainy season, family gathered, church times, it is just the best season indeed. the 25th was passed but the euphoria still here and i guess it'll stay lil bit longer. i was enjoying my 25th with family but not with him. anyway, it's been a year for my long distance relationship. how it feels? like roller coaster. there's a time i feel totally mad cause i can't dating with him and it makes totally lame, but once we're dating the sensation seems like our first date. disturbance sometimes come but we could handle it so far. we might be getting busy each other and sometimes, honestly, i feel like i'm boring him cause we have no more time for calling every night. this is the hardest part knowing that communication is the most important thing in my relationship. but so far things going fine and i know he's really busy with his office's stuff not other things. i know it cause he really took very serious on his career. he's one of the best employees on his office and got promoting and now he's starting his new position. i'm surely proud of him. he's the best man i've ever met and hope we're always will stick together.

Two weeks ahead i'll have final semester test. this is my first final test on college. and i had super days on this semester. i have great friends they are just like my new family. they really know bout my feel and they can accept me the way i am. i am me with them. hope that we all could pass the test extremely good and we got the best score :)

anyway, i'm wishing you all a very Merry Christmas (: Christmas means Peace, Peace means Love, and Love is about Sharing. Share your Love to all people, and let them feel the Peace of Christmas :)

xx

Tassya

New Colleger says HI!

Life has been so hectic recently but i definitely enjoy it. My lectures are really nice though those tasks are really annoying and my lecturers seems like can't stop giving that every week! In the firsts week i was so exhausted and my condition was almost dropped, even my voice was lost almost in a week. Which was that meant a disaster! I couldn't singing out loud like i used to. argghh it was just like a nightmare! yep i know that's kinda over, but it was really disturbing me and decreasing my mood. But i'm getting well right now even my voice is getting louder, that's what my friends said. Oh yeah about my new besties! I thanked God i could be one of the Sociology 2k12! They are... ehem i mean, We are awesome and rock!! i'm blessed having friends like 'em cause they are funny, enjoying and they are just my new mood boosters. I just love them! :)
Fyi, i'm one of the Airlangga University Choir too:D. Got accepted after i join the selection test and i think i just got a very nice luck cause my voice was lost -as i told u- when i did the test. And somehow my group in PUKMB, it's like an orientation for the new member of the choir and we were divided into 4 groups and we were compete to got the first place in this little choir contest and the winner is BUJAH, that's my group :D:D we were  practiced like a crazy but so much fun. I love them all too hehe :):)
This new 'world' to me is giving a lot of friends. Not just a friend but a family. I hope this relation last till forever. Nothing's greater than being one of them -for this time hehe-

Playing Bass recently hahak

That's all my Sociology mates. Here are BUJAH :D

Thanks Friendos :)

Dix-huit

So last Saturday, that was August 11th, i turned to 18! Feel totally blessed and grateful with all the things that i have and being the person i am today. I really thank to God that i could get the best University, it's one of my big dream and God is totally kind gimme that chance to made one of my dream come true and it's simply the best gift ever! I love Jesus!!
Talking bout gifts, i got something from my boyfriend and i really like, no i mean, I really LOVE it! I thought he would gimme something like ehmm doll, may be, or scrapbooks but instead this,

Yep, That's Fuji Instax 7s! and it's WHITE! (Sorry for bad resolution pic) I completely surprised cause i've never told him that i like it and if he already known it, i never hope that he'll give me that as my gift cause i think it's over budget and i don't want to make him spend his money. But overall I totally HAPPY and HAPPY and HAPPY!! :D Thanks so much mon petit ami :*:*(hugs!)

and here are my shots that i took with my new lovely toycam :D

But here is my Favorite :):*

And i have a new hobby! :D:D

Thursday is asking

I feel good to answer some questions right know. So here we goww!!


1. Who is the last person you think of before you fall asleep?
     Him

2. What is your favorite nickname?
    Natassyasya :D

3. Something you do when alone but not when others are around?
    Singin out loud

4. Have any phobias?
    Hmm not really

5. Favorite type of car (dream car counts)?
    Morris Oxford!!

6. Have a blog?
    Yep! I have 2 actually

7. Your purpose to make a blog?
    To practice my English and I like writing :)

8. Top 10 songs?
    You should watch MTV or something i guess

9. Top 10least favorite songs?
    Don't know why, Adelaide Sky, Overjoyed, Edge of desire, Sweet disposition, Mushaboom, Hoppipolla, Still a friend of mine, Mind trick, Moon river.

10. Least favorite band?
    Hmmm. For now Sigur ros

11. Dream vacation?
     Europe tour!! :D

12. Dream date?
     Ride on Gondola :D

13. Favorite animal?
     Deer (I've never seen though)

14. Favorite eye color?
     Hazel!

15. Favorite book?
     Princess diaries!!

16. Dream house?
     I've posted about it. Just find it out

17. Where would you like to live (other planets count)?
     Venice

18. How old are you?
     almost 18 in couple days

19. Favorite era for music?
     2000ish. when Alicia Keys debuted her first album. Is that 2000ish?

20. If you had to repopulate the earth, who would you want your "partner" to be?
     Hmm Superman (dahh --)

21. Favorite celebrity?
    Anne Hathaway and Zooey Deschannel

22. if you could choose how you looked, what would you look like?
    I love being me!

23. Dream dob (date of birth)?
    August, 11th is perfect :)

24. least favorite chore?
    Copping!!!!

25. Favorite color?
    Pink

26. Least favorite color?
    Pink, Navy Blue, Peach, Brown, i love colorful

27. Top 5 favorite blogs?
    Diana rikasari, Anizabelle, Scathingly Brilliant, Curious damsel, Raditya Dika

28. Favorite tv show?
     Mastercheff

29. Top 5 favorite movies?
     500 days of Summer, A walk to remember, Letters to Juliet, Midnight in Paris, Angels and Demons

30. Least favorite movie?
     500 days of Summer

31. Band you'd like to see in concert?
     Barry Likumahuwa Project

32. If you could know anything about your future, what would you want to know (1item allowed)?
     My Job

33. Favorite cd?
     Alicia Keys

34. Ever met someone famous?
     Yep.

35. If you could go back in time, what era would you travel back to (1960,1980-----)?

     90ish

Wanna ask me more? Go here :):)

World's smiling to me

How's life people? mine? So much relief! I finally got accepted to my dream university. Yepp Airlangga University major Sociology '12 :D. I'm so excited to meet my new friends, get new knowledge, and experiences. As u know i actually wanna take International Relations as my major but somehow it didn't workin out so then i'm here with Sociology hahaha. I'm still happy though, at least i could take my dream faculty he he. And btw, i still have about a month to spending my last-days-holiday and i guess i will improve my drive skill by this buddy

That's si putih everyone hehe. Yesterday i was went to my college by that car and i drove it by myself! It was my first time driving a car alone haha so much fun hehe :3. 

Tomorrow is my mom's birthday! have to go now, gotta make something to her. toodles :3

Have a great day people, world is better when u smile :D