Yuletide

So,
Yesterday i was going to church with my family to celebrate the Christmas' eve as usual. Christmas' eve always be my favorite day over the New year's eve even may be my birthday. It's so happy to see all the family gathered together. Some already have couples of grandchild, some has just got married and gathered with a new big family, some are gonna have new babies, some Long-distance-relationship couples are finally could meet each others and share the joyful of Christmas while some have to feel some lost or solitude. But i bet all of those people are happy because The Savior has come to Earth.
This warmth, this joy, this grateful feel are the best thing that i could felt tonight. but maybe not as good as lasts Christmases because this is the first Christmas without my grandma and grandpa. God loves them more than us here. Grandpa was gone on 2012 and Grandma was gone last September. They are the greatest person in this universe and my days feel empty without them. But that's life. Nothing lasts forever.
And it realizing me something. A thing that actually i already understood, but kept denying it. May be i am a person who think rationally but do irrationally or in other words, a coward. I dont know how to explain this but when i see the ambiance of Christmas and its beauty i realize a thing that love isn't that love. it's a big thing and it is bigger than that, so it has the consequences and they also big.
So i guess that's it. May be because love has its potion to make us blind and drunk by it we always forgotten the rest. And make a barrier between love and other things while all the things in this life always relating.
I hope we all can be a better person and be brave.

Merry Christmas,

T