That Fragile-ly

Have you been in the situation that you're actually not belong to but you're thought that you belong to that? Well i've been. I thought that i was really needed there and people will be excited for me, but in fact no. It seems like i got punked by myself. I was too confident and i'm really sure, that i was the important one. But then taa-daa they rejected me. I know i am the invisible person but i was promise to myself to be a better person and try to brave to showing myself. But no one cares. I always said to myself "Everything's gonna be okay" when something that i trust to suddenly flew up away or if my heart got something, you know, not comfort seems like something tell me "Hey there's something bad going to you". Well, at the first time my own suggestion worked. It was Okay but then when i feel really okay, peace, and happy there just always something make me down and that's make me feel useless. I tell ya that hurt is really stab my heart deeply. It seems like something or might be someone doesn't want to see me happy.
But, i try to let it all flow. though it's kinda hard but i still have my Mood-Booster :)


But there's one thing haunt my self. Should i have a backup plan? Cause i really scared to lose something that really good in my life.

xo,

me

Begging

I am totally sorry i didn't continue the challenge. School's really pressured me and i have to study like every time. But i'll be back and continue the challenge or perhaps posting something new. Or might be if i can steal some minutes i'll post something here. just wait. but, for meanwhile i have to stay

F O C U S

Have a nice Days,
T

Saturday in twice

Yeep i made mistake yesterday. i forgot to post the challenge cause i had a date hehehe. So it's gonna be a double post again.  Leggo!

Day #12, Shuffle Song

It's a nice song from Alicia Keys ft. John Mayer Lesson Learned. It's actually not a happy song instead it's just make me lame and it's remembering me of something in the past that i hate it. Just check the lyrics

He broke my heart
And now it's raining
Just to rub it in
I'm at your door
I feel so crazy about it
You'll say I told you so
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go
I finally came 'round
I'm back on solid ground
Can't let it get me down

Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned
So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned
So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Sometimes
Some lies
Can take a minute
To fully realize
His tears
Your eyes
Thirty seconds to apologize
You give it one more chance
Just like the time before
But he already know you'd give a hundred more
Until that night in bed
You wake up in a sweat
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore

Life perfect
Ain't perfect
If you don't know what the struggle's for
Falling down ain't falling down
If you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past cause I'm getting past
And I ain't nothing like I was beforeYou ought to see me now

Got what i mean right? Past isn't really good for me but it doesn't mean that i've never had a happy past. I spent my childhood with some nice friends, and mommy and daddy and opung really love me. But in this case i mean 'those cheesy things' if we're not choose the right one it's just make us hurt. I bet everyone ever get hurt included me. but it was just in Past. Just forget it and love what you have now :)

Maaan this is lame haha!

Day #13, Somewhere you'd like to visit

Venice, Italy! No reason! everyone knows that That place is the most beautiful and romantic city in this world! Someday i'll go there. AMEN! :D

Happy Saturd :):),

T

The Day #11

Dream Wedding.
Hmmm.. Well i bet it will be so traditionally cause my parents said that i have to use the Batak Traditional wedding cause it's a must, and after all i want to do it cause i want it. I realized it's our must to keep the culture and i really proud to be a Batak girl hehe :)
But in this post we mentioned a Dream Wedding. So let's Dreaming
I'm thinking of a Dreamland wedding. It sounds dorky and childish eh? A wedding should be a splendid-mature party it shouldn't be like a birthday party but whatever! I will choose a beautiful meadow and all the stuffs are white and there are many flowers too and don't forget about the Sun flares! Then I will wear a long white dress with some pink flowers as my hand bouquet. i will be The queen of that 'Dreamland' and Mon petit-ami will be The King and he'll look totally handsome in his white special Tuxedo. I'll hire Norah Jones, Jamie Cullum, and might be Racoon to give the sweet touch on my wedding.Then taa-daa a Perfect Wedding  has just arranged! hehe :p
and It will be lovely and the most happy day! Just imagine that i could feel that Shiver. I will be terribly blessed if it's happen.

Hahaha this is the most twisted post ever :D

xo,

me